I'VE HAD ENOUGH *Bares fangs*posted Aug 7th 2007, 4:20PM
Mood: Confused
Music: Stand up- Trapt
I'm tied in a knot right now and my mind is going back and forth... I'm sort of confused with things right now and I'm not too happy about it. So I'm just going to shout a few things. Just to get it off my mind.
I don't like remembering every moment in my life because some of them are bad. Though it gets me very sad that I can't do those things anymore..
I never said I love my dad before to him until I had a N.D.E... My panic attacks are fewer moments now, I have flashbacks now and then...
My family literally neglects me from many things they get to have fun with while I sit there in the back just watching. My two sisters like to fight and put me in the middle so I'm at the point where they fight, I cry. I'm not emo I'm not goth. I'm different. I'm weird. But Proud of it...
Something bad is about to happen, Whenever, wherever, I zone out and see what's going to happen... Sometimes I could warn everyone, sometimes I would think it of a daydream or a dream... It actually happeneds... And it's driving me into madness. If I move it all away I just feel awful.
When I'm the only one. What would I do...? Am I really the only one who has these weird thoughts? Is there anyone here that could make tons of books filled with their thoughts on how weird life is beginning to be? Am I just crazy? o3o
:3 These aren't paragraphs.. Just small sections.. I choose to have them mmkkayy? My life has been waiting for a certain time when amazing things would happen. Could I ever in a life time get that chance? C'mon, I know I'm not the only one... Never understood me this way huh? It's funny, I don't think I'm the only person who gets these. I may be. SOMEONE SHOUT FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!! *Slams head on keyboard dkfjdskfm;*
Maybe I'm just crazy... Expecially about the physco moments when I could tell when something bad is about to happen .... GOD I AM CRAZY! o.o;... <_< I Need hot coco or somethin... Maybe it's because I have so much on my mind that I begin to wonder. I begin to wonder about the things happening with our lives. People are crazy, people are violent, they kill... Blind. My pets are going nuts when the moon is out, I'M EVEN GOING NUTS JUST LOOKING AT IT. There's red rings around it and I don't know if that's how it really is or not...
I hear far away things up close.. for example... Sirens WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY down town. I hear them up close. People call me doggy or wolf girl ;.... I cut my nails, they grow back too fast.. Like in a day... My teeth are extremely sharp. If something is coming my ears feel weird as if they lift up , down , or back. I can't control that .. God Sorry. I may be sounding weird at this time but these are all of my secrets and thoughts.
My mother sort of knows that I could some how talk to animals ;... She didn't tell anyone after she's witnessed that. The cheetah incident.. o.o; Please don't think I'm weird or on crack or something. I hate drugs. I Despise them. I wouldn't lay my finger on any kind of drug. Not even medicine. Anyways, Here's your thoughts...
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My life has been waiting for a certain time when amazing things would happen. Could I ever in a life time get that chance? C'mon, I know I'm not the only one... Never understood me this way huh? It's funny, I don't think I'm the only person who gets these. I may be. SOMEONE SHOUT FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!! *Slams head on keyboard dkfjdskfm;*
.... GOD I AM CRAZY! o.o;... <_< I Need hot coco or somethin... Maybe it's because I have so much on my mind that I begin to wonder. I begin to wonder about the things happening with our lives. People are crazy, people are violent, they kill... Blind. My pets are going nuts when the moon is out, I'M EVEN GOING NUTS JUST LOOKING AT IT. There's red rings around it and I don't know if that's how it really is or not...
.. God Sorry. I may be sounding weird at this time but these are all of my secrets and thoughts.
I thought so... *sighs*
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